A surprise for all of us --- WE'RE MOVING!?

Thursday, July 29, 2021

 I know. I KNOW. I KNOWWWWWWWW. 



We *JUST* finished our house. Like, literally just checked off the last project on my to do list (new kitchen counters) less than 2 months ago. I KNOW. 


Let me tell you what happened.... 


You guys know I'm a Realtor. I see houses and show houses all the time. RARELY, rarely, rarely have I ever seen a house that I've been like "oooo, I want this house." 


But this house. 


Since I am an incessant planner and a daydreamer, (#pisceslife) we had talked about if we felt like our current home would be our forever home, and both of us agreed there are some things we LOVE about our home that we'd never want to change, and there are some things that we reaaaaally want to change that we truly couldn't. More privacy from our neighbors, for example. We adore our cul-de-sac, but the two homes directly next to us both look over fishbowl style into our backyard, and it has always bothered us. They are wonderful people, but I don't need to see into your kitchen/bedroom/front door every time I go outside. We also would love to have more trees. And a screen porch. And laundry inside. And a dedicated work space for me that isn't in our living room. Really, we just need a bit more space. But our house is so wonderful and we love it, and we've worked SO hard on it, and we planned to be here for another 2 years *at least.* 


But this house. 


I saw it come on the market on a Tuesday, and sent it to Spenser just for eye candy purposes. Occasionally I'll drag him to come see homes with me just for fun, and we daydream about what we'd do differently or what we like/don't like, and we had looked at a few recently. Never had we seen a house that made us say "should we buy this!?" 


But this house. 


Some of the things that really stuck out to us were: 


1) The kitchen had recently been renovated and was truly jaw dropping. The owners put their heart and soul into renovating a dream kitchen, and it was unlike anything we've ever seen in our area (which tends to lean towards 2000s builder-grade-blah). We knew that a kitchen like that could not be easily replicated. I mean!!!! Look!!!!




2) On top of the kitchen, there were *two* large spaces that would be perfect offices for each of us, as we are both working from home for... forever(?) and genuinely do need a bit more space from each other to work in peace. 


3) It has a screen porch. Homes without screen porches should be illegal in NC where the mosquitos and noseeums will eat you alive in .2 seconds flat. A screen porch surrounded by trees was so dreamy to us, we immediately pictured sitting out there in a thunderstorm and listening to the rain cascade down the leaves. Swoon. 


4) It is SURROUNDED by trees. Hardwood trees. SO MANY TREES. This is a dream situation for us and we would live inside of the woods if we could. And you cannot replicate that without decade of time and great planning. This is a really special lot that backs to two neighborhood easements and is so private and quiet. 






5) It also has a separate guest bathroom -- something that has become more important as we try to encourage family to come visit more often to help with Heidi. HI MOM! Having a more secluded guest space will give everyone their privacy and be comfortable for visiting. 



We sat in the kitchen for probably 30 minutes in that first showing saying "should we buy this? no that's crazy. But should we?? Nooooo. SHOULD WE??" After coming back 3 more times, we decided that we really loved this home, and had *that feeling* that this was our next space, and that it would be the perfect forever home (hopefully) for our family. It checked off ALL of our boxes, and fulfilled dream wish lists we never in a million years thought we'd get checked off. We decided to go all in, and make the best offer we could, and much to our surprise, they accepted! 


Cue ALL of the emotions/anxiety/excitement! We had a lot of work to do to get our house ready to sell, but as Spenser said "we've been prepping to sell this home for 3 years!" 

We ended up having a private showing for a buyer from Nest Realty, they made us a wonderful offer we were so grateful for, and we accepted! We close on our homes in a little less than a month and will be moving by the end of August. 

None of this was part of our original plan, but life has a funny way of telling you "TURN HERE!" when the path is about to change. Now that the shock of the situation has worn off, we are really looking forward to moving, getting settled into our new space, and getting to put our personal touch on things. 

Our home on Greystone has been my baby for three years, and I truly put all of my heart and energy into bringing it to life. But now that Heidi is here, our priorities have really shifted and one of my FAVORITE things about the new house is that there aren't any huge projects to do! The HVAC, windows, roof, drainage, and interior are all in such great condition, there's really nothing immediate for us to do. Down the road, there are some cosmetic updates I can do to the bathrooms, but everything is in pristine condition and we are in no rush to make any changes.

I have loved documenting our renovations and family updates in this blog, so though my pace has slowed down since Heidi came along, I'm hoping to continue this hobby in our new house, as well! 

Onwards! 

Our finished kitchen

Friday, July 9, 2021

 Remember back when I was 800 years pregnant and the nesting hormones told me to paint my kitchen? 


You all thought I was crazy (I probably was) but looking back I am so glad I did it. As hard as it was painting anything at 37 weeks pregnant, it has been way harder to do *anything* home related with our little bug in tow. She's a curious and busy little bee and wants to be in on all the action, so getting anything done around her is a challenge and has to be relegated to nap time. And if she even catches word that you're planning on doing something during nap time... game over! No naps that day haha. 


Earlier this summer we did the final touches on our 3 years in the making kitchen renovation, and I am so excited to share the photos with you! We did all of this DIY (except the floors and counters) and I am really proud of what it looks like now. 


To be fair, we started with really great bones. The cabinets were not my style, but they were brand new and in really good condition. We had a flat back of drywall to tile against, and a nice floor plan with lots of storage to work with. Cosmetic updates were really all it needed! 


The biggest change was wayyyy back in 2018 when we turned the downstairs coat closet into a pantry, and that has served us so well and was absolutely worth doing! 







This is what it looked like after we painted the cabinets before Heidi was born last June. I have a whole post about that process, here. 


For my birthday this March, I asked Spenser to tile a backsplash for me as my present. He took a weekend to get it done and did an AMAZING job. The previous owner of our home had used some extra acrylic shower surround as a backsplash and had covered all of the outlets up with it, so it was really not functional nor was it really that attractive. We really wanted to put in a true backsplash, so when Spenser volunteered I jumped! I am so lucky to have such a handy and helpful husband! He actually really enjoyed the process too (mostly) so it was a win win. We were in the throws of new baby life, so I didn't write down much about this process to share with you guys, but happy to answer any questions about DIY tiling any time! 


Here is what the kitchen looked like after he installed the backsplash. We did a white subway tile with a grey grout. If we were to do it again, we would have done a smaller grout line, but we really are happy with how it turned out! 



Still, the kitchen felt unfinished to us. We sat on it for another four months, but this June, we decided we wanted to replace the counter tops. By this point, we had started considering the idea of moving in the next 18months to 2 years, and knew it would a) help with resale and b) be something we would genuinely enjoy for as long as we lived in this home! I contacted my go-to counter top guy, and he installed beautiful carrera quartz counter tops for us for a steal! For any locals I am more than happy to share his contact info. He is so well priced and can install anything! 


As soon as the new counters were in, we fell in love! The bright white counters finally got rid of the sandy yellow color that reflected off of everything in the kitchen from the formerly yellow counters. We replaced 4 bathrooms and a kitchen of that ugly yellow color and I have no regrets. 




This kitchen has come such a long way without any changes to the layout, and we are so proud of what it looks like now! That said, I'd like to never have to do another kitchen renovation again, please! 













Happy Birthday, Heidi Rose!

Friday, July 2, 2021

 Happy Birthday, Heidigirl.


   


One whole year. I can hardly believe it, it truly went so fast.

When you were born, you didn’t look anything like I had pictured in my head. You were so loved, but so shockingly unfamiliar. It became apparent to me in our first hours together that you were your own person - not some extension of me. A whole stranger I was going to need to get to know.

When I think back on what life was like in my first year of being a mama— your mama— the magical firsts like first smile, first word, first crawl, first time seeing snow! The Beach! These are all things I had dreamed of for you and me. But this year also was so challenging. The first eight months of your life a pandemic raged. We stayed home. We didn’t see any family. We had so little support. There were times when we pushed your stroller off the sidewalk as people passed because we didn’t know if a stranger breathing on you might make you sick. It was a hard year to learn how to be a mother.

Things have gotten easier, and I hope you feel that too. We see family. Faces. Smiles. If there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that people smile with their eyes. Because even though you saw so many masks, you always knew when someone was smiling at you. It made me happy to see you so unaffected in that way.

You and me and dad lived in a little bubble for the last year. We cuddle napped every nap for 7 months. You refused to take bottles so the only person who has ever fed you is me, snuggled up close.

You are my girl. My light. My heart. I live to help you live, and that is my joy upon joys. The honor of my life. A year ago I didn’t know who I was going to meet when they pulled you from my belly. Over the last year I’ve gotten to know the most beautiful, incredible baby, who filled my heart with a happiness I’ve never known.

And today, I get to meet my toddler for the first time! Wake up baby girl, it’s time to eat a donut! 🍩 ❤️

Happy birthday, Heidi Rose! I love you.
Mom











Fourth Trimester Favorites

Thursday, October 29, 2020

Heidi turned 16 weeks old last week, and I have to say... the fourth trimester is REAL. Those first twelve weeks were an absolute blur of diapers, feedings, naps, joy and tears (from both of us). 


Overall, I feel like I had a mostly positive and manageable fourth trimester. Once I was feeling back to myself about 6 weeks post c-section, I felt like I could start finding my groove, but 6-8 weeks was the hardest for Heidi. Homegirl had a brutal witching hour and would go from my Happy Heidi to Not So Happy Heidi at exactly 5pm every day, and then stay Pissed The Hell Off Heidi until about 10pm every day. It was exhausting, and I can’t tell you how many times I googled “my six week old won’t (sleep/stop crying/nap)” during that time. I felt really lost and desperate until I realized it was just developmental. Snuggle naps became our daily routine, and I surrendered to the moment and just held my baby until she was through it each day. 

For Spenser and I, we definitely grieved the loss of together time in the evenings after he was finished with work. For five years our routine was dinner and TV until bed, and we really missed each other! We ate in shifts and took turns rocking her to sleep until she could be put down without springing awake. She started getting through it around 10/11 weeks, and by 12 weeks the witching hour was gone like clockwork. We had a complete night and day shift in our evening routine. She was going to bed more easily, and even started sleeping through the night.  


If I was going to do it again, and not in a pandemic, I would have asked for more help from friends or family during those evening witching hours. That was the time of day I was bone tired and just needed some rest, and she was needing the most from me. It was a recipe for a lot of stress and tears but... like everyone said, it passed! If you're entering this season, maybe plan for Grandma to come during that 6-8 week stretch to help in the evenings or hire a post partum doula. Some extra help during those rough weeks was really needed, and is something I feel like I will do differently if we have another baby. Pandemic parenting is not for the faint of heart and we are not in a rush to do this again.


Baby sleep aside, I thought it would be fun to round up some of our baby must haves that we have used and loved for Heidi. 


1) Ollie swaddle. We tried every swaddle available, and she hated all of them / could break out of all of them. The Ollie swaddle instantly calmed her down and really helped during those fussy witching hours to keep her calm and relax if she got overstimulated. They're expensive, but so worth it in my opinion.


2) Oogie bear. We were gifted the Nose Frida, but have yet to use it. Even at 4 months, it’s too big to fit in her nose. Someone recommend the OogieBear and it works great to pick that tiny little nose and get her boogs out so she can breathe properly! 


3) In home lactation consultant: our LC was covered by insurance. We had 12 visits- once a week for the first twelve weeks and we NEEDED them. I love breastfeeding, but like a lot of people, we had some serious challenges. Heidi had a tongue and lip tie that required surgical correction, laryngomalasia (also known as a floppy air way), I have a fast letdown and an over supply, and after her oral tie reversal, she developed a disegulated suck/swallow reflex that prevented her from being able to latch to a bottle, either. We had so many challenges breastfeeding and  and we would not be where we are now without the help of our lactation specialists. Both Heidi and I have loved our nursing journey and I’m so glad we didn’t have to give it up when it was hard. 


4) Cloud island jammies. So yourself a favor and just buy these in every size. The two way zipper is life. Nothing else compares when you’re changing diapers in the middle of the night! 


5) Lavie breast massagers. IF YOU MAKE MILK YOU NEED THESE! They heat up and vibrate and help soooo much if you get engorged/need to work out a clog. These saved me from mastitis a few times, I'm convinced of it.


6) This electric nail file. This is the only way to file a baby’s nails. The only way. This was definitely invented by a very smart mother. All I can say is, you’re welcome .


7) Butt paste brush. I thought this was so *extra* but it has turned out to be one of my most used baby items. Diaper rash cream is thick as heck and gets everywhere. This little booty spatula gets it right where it needs to go, and not under my fingernails. 


Some other things we loved: 

Noodle & Boo everything. We use all of their products on Heidi and it is so wonderful. We have the shampoo and lotion, some wipes that we use for after she eats, the hand sanitizer smells like baby powder and I bought more for my car! I'm really picky about the way she smells and this is my favorite!


Kyte sleep sack. We invested in this sleep sack after trying to find the perfect fit to keep her warm on cold days and cool on warm days (our house is weird with controlling temp). The bamboo keeps her from overheating, but it’s warm and puffy like a blankie. She moved out of the swaddle completely at 9 weeks, so I wished I had had this on my registry bc it wasn’t cheap! We have since bought the 12mo size and the 18mo size and love them! 


This play gym. Before having Heidi I was anti toys that light up/make noise. Now I know what's good for me :) This was the first toy that entertained her enough for me to walk away/do something else while she played. Even now, she still plays with the piano portion! The music is actually pretty pleasant, too!


I haven't been able to blog as much as I would like given my new role as mom, working mom, pandemic working mom with no support... but I try to write these posts during Heidi's nap time on my phone and post them when I can. I've enjoyed writing so much but it's something that has to go to the back-burner when I'm overloaded :) 








Welcoming Heidi Rose Pt. 2 (Our Breech C- Section)

Saturday, July 25, 2020



The morning of our planned c-section was really calm. We were told to arrive at the hospital by 6:30AM, so around 4:30, we woke up, started getting ourselves ready. We had time to each shower, pack any last minute things, and get ourselves to the hospital. Spenser was able to  get himself breakfast and coffee (I wasn't allowed to eat pre-surgery). We had the most beautiful sunrise on the way to the hospital and had the most surreal feeling knowing we were going to meet our daughter within hours. At first we didn't know how we felt about having a planned birth, but it ended up feeling like Christmas day! We were so full of excitement (and a few nerves), and felt so ready to meet our girl. 

 


When we arrived at the hospital, they got us into a pre-op room, took some blood work, and started doing team introductions. We met the anesthesiologist, the nurses, the OB (who we had chosen ahead of time from our practice) and each one of them walked us through what their role would be during our surgery. The nurses were 10/10 at Wake Med Cary. Every single one of them checked with me to see how I was feeling, if there was anything they could do for us, and if there was anything important to me about our birth. I told them that the only thing I REALLY wanted (aside from a healthy/happy baby!) was audio recording of her first cry. I had been working on a video project my entire pregnancy and really wanted to be able to hear her first cry to finish it off.



Right around our surgery time, they put me in a wheel chair and walked us back to the operating room. Spenser scrubbed into his surgical outfit, and I got my surgical cap on. They took me back alone to administer the spinal block. Honestly, I didn't have any discomfort with the anesthesia at all! I felt a small amount of pressure, and then my legs felt warm. Pretty quickly after it was administered they had me climb up on the bed and as I was doing it I started feeling my lower half go numb. Within 5 minutes, I couldn't feel anything -- a weird sensation in itself! They hung the surgical drape and Spenser came in to sit by my head. He turned on his audio recording at that point and listening back, I must have been nervous because I wouldn't stop talking! I was so chatty with the nurses and kept asking questions/cracking jokes. I don't remember doing it but I was feeling a lot of adrenaline so I'm not surprised! 

Right before surgery started I realized I hadn't "said goodbye" to my belly. I had been rubbing Heidi's head under my ribs for weeks, so I reached down to give her one last "pat" goodbye before meeting earthside.... didn't even realize I was breaking the sterile field. Oops. They had to re-scrub me and re-sterilize. My bad! 

Once the surgery started, they allowed us to play some music. Spenser put on my favorite Maggie Rogers station so we couldn't hear the surgery starting and I just started singing along. It was really calm! The anesthesiologist by my head was walking me through what was happening (in not gory details) and at one point she said "Okay honey, they're at the uterus! Babies are usually born about one minute after this, so get ready!" I made sure Spenser had his audio on for the 100th time :) 

A second later I heard our OB say "Oh Margaret, she is really wedged in here! She is complete breech!" I learned later that she was sitting cross -legged in my pelvis, and was wedged so deep that I required an extra wide incision for them to be able to get her out. Our OB reaffirmed our decision not to have the ECV procedure.. there was no way it would have worked! Heidi was stuck and couldn't have turned around even if she wanted to! 

It's funny now seeing her on the outside... her back is always arched in the exact position she was laying in my womb, and she loves to have her legs crossed when she's relaxed! She was happy as she was. 

Because Heidi was so wedged in, she took about 3 minutes to be born and I felt a ton of rocking back and forth. It felt like my whole lower body was going side to side, but I didn't feel much beyond that. I could tell I was being touched, but had no pain. 

Finally, our OB said "She's got hair! She's here!" and we heard this loud little cry and a watery choke. She had taken a big gulp of amniotic fluid on her way out (common with startled c-section babies) and choked a bit. We had elected to have a clear drape so we could see her when she was first born, but because she inhaled water, I didn't get to see her right away. The pediatric team took her and immediately started suctioning her lungs. I can only imagine what Heidi was feeling -- she went from being pregnant to not pregnant in seconds! It must have been so shocking. Spenser was able to go over and take pictures of her and see her, which was so special for him. Finally we got some sustained cries from her, and within 5 minutes of being born they brought her to my chest to have skin to skin. The nurses laid her on my chest and snuggled in the OR for about 20 minutes while they stitched me up. We were able to get her to latch to the breast while we were in the OR, as well! I was overwhelmed with happiness and love, but I'll never forget looking down at her face and saying "oh my gosh, you're real!" She had such a distinct look... her own little face. It was honestly a little hard for me to process! I don't know what I expected, but she didn't look like what I had pictured in my head. It was the strangest feeling meeting a stranger I had known my whole life. I just tried to embrace it and take it all in, take her all in, and open my heart to motherhood! 

 


Once I was stitched up, the nurses swaddled Heidi and she and Spenser went to wait for me in the recovery room. They ended up having about 25 minutes of together time, just them, which is so, so special. Once I was transferred back to recovery, the three of us cuddled while the nurses monitored my blood pressure and bleeding for about 2 hours. Heidi latched to the breast again, and we began our (really positive) breastfeeding journey. We called family and let them know she was here, and shared her name for the first time! 



We had chosen Heidi's name pretty early on (around January) but hadn't *committed* because we wanted to meet her. Spenser said the name Heidi once going through a list of names and when he said "Heidi Rubin" we both stopped in our tracks. It felt like we knew that person! We kept it to ourselves and had a lot of fun with family guessing her name throughout our pregnancy. Thankfully, as soon as we saw her in the delivery room, we both knew, it was Heidi! Her middle name, Rose, was not what we had expected to name her. I was adamant about using a family name, and even had something monogrammed with it. But when we said it over her, it didn't feel right! Heidi's cousin Ruby had been saying from the beginning of our pregnancy that if it was a girl her name should be Rosie -- when we said Heidi Rose, it just clicked. That's who this sweet little girl is! She had been telling us all along. 

The first four days of Heidi's life we spent in the hospital. You get extra time with a c-section because C-section recovery is no joke. I was told to try and get up and move around as much as possible, as soon as possible, but for me, moving around was walking 5 steps to the bathroom and back. Managing my pain became the entire goal of our hospital stay. Our nursing journey with Heidi was going well, and my milk came in before we left the hospital. The lactation consultants and nurses who came through were all so encouraging and positive about how well we were doing with breastfeeding -- thankfully that hasn't been an issue for us. But, we had the hardest time getting my pain under control. 

 


It came to a head on the third day when the adrenaline of the birth finally wore off. I woke up with a hot, searing, pain like I was being cut in half. It was so overwhelming I could barely breathe. I was trying to yell for Spenser across the room (he was asleep) but all I could get out was a whisper. I was desperate for pain relief, and we struggled to get the nurse on duty to sympathize. I told her I was at a 12/10 and needed relief immediately. She was insistent on me waiting the 15 minutes until I was "allowed" to have my next dose of pain meds. After that experience, I was more adamant about getting stronger pain meds with each tylenol dosage, but it took a few days to get my pain back under control from that experience. 

 


During our hospital stay, Spenser truly had to be my hands and feet. I couldn't pick up the baby by myself, I couldn't walk by myself, I couldn't even feed myself. He had to hand me water, feed me, help me go to the bathroom, AND do all of the infant care like diaper and clothing changes because I couldn't. We had hoped to leave the hospital and have a few days home alone as a family of three, and thought that would be doable based on my conversations with other CSection moms, but for us that was impossible. We called my mom on Sunday morning (the day of our discharge) and said "SOS - we need your help, can you come today?" Thankfully, she was in the car within hours and met us at home an hour after we got back. We desperately needed her extra hands so Spenser could focus on taking care of Heidi and my mom could help take care of me. 

  


I was shocked at how hard it was for me to walk and do basic things after my c-section. I don't know if it's because my incision was so large, or because we let my pain get mismanaged, or if I just had a tough recovery, but my experience didn't sound anything like most of the other women I'd spoken to... Maybe they were sugar coating it when they talked to me haha. They had told me about how they were up and moving around within 3 days, and they would have another c-section again in a heartbeat... All I have to say is, DAMN, you are bad-asses. You couldn't pay me enough money to choose to have another c-section. I will do everything in my power to avoid ever having to go through that recovery again. It's been three weeks and I still can't walk more than 100 yards, lift a laundry basket, unload the dishwasher, or wear normal clothes. I have a lot of incision pain/nerve pain, and fabric touching the skin around my incision is really uncomfortable. I realize no woman gets out of birth unscathed, and vaginal births can be really tough too, but I really would not choose to endure this again. 



After the first five days, things started to get better. I was moving around a bit more, but Heidi had started cluster feeding to bring in my milk and it was exhausting my body. We had a really scary night where my blood pressure spiked to 165/110 and we thought I may have been preeclamptic. After a sleepless night, we gathered up our 6 day old baby and went to the ER at 2AM. When we got there, they told me Heidi could not stay - It wasn't safe because of Covid-19. I lost my mind! We were exclusively breastfeeding, and if they weren't going to send us back to the postpartum floor, I realized I was about to be admitted to the hospital and separated from my daughter -- potentially for days. I was so scared about how she would eat - we had not brought a pump nor did we have formula. I was texting Spenser that he may need to go find a 24 hour grocery store to buy formula, or get home and thaw some donor milk we had, because Heidi would need to eat imminently. Somehow, this angel baby went 3.5 hours without food, and slept the entire time. She was completely fine, but I was terrified. While we were at the ER, my blood pressure eventually came down. It was still high for me, but no longer at dangerous levels, so I decided (with the guidance of my OB) to self discharge and visit my doctor first thing in the morning. By the next morning, my BP was 118/75... we think my body may have just had a stress response to cluster feeding but thank God I was not preeclamptic! 



For both Spenser and I, that was the worst day of our postpartum journey. It was SO scary thinking that something was wrong with me, that we may be separated, that he may have to care for Heidi alone (for days!?) if I was admitted, and just going to the hospital emergency room during a viral pandemic was alarming in itself. We had spent months avoiding people and places to protect our baby, and here she was in the waiting room of an ER at 6 days old. It was not fun. Thankfully, we are all ok and we were able to regroup and things got better from there. 



Heidi has been an amazing feeder and sleeper. She nursed at the breast without issue from Day 1, and continues to be a champ nurser. Not only that, but she's an awesome sleeper. I knock on wood saying that, but we've been getting 2.5-3.5 hour stretches of sleep from her since the beginning and it's made the newborn days a lot easier for us all. 

I have done my best to separate our postpartum recovery from the surgical recovery when I think about Heidi's birth. Postpartum wise, things have been so much better than I expected. Nursing hasn't been a challenge, sleep deprivation hasn't been that bad, and my mood was SO much more stable than I had expected it to be! The surgical recovery sucked, though. I would never choose to walk that path again if I didn't have to. The pain was really challenging and the limited mobility I still have is very frustrating. I realize that three weeks is not a lot of time, and I'm giving myself grace, but for me, it feels like a big shift. I mean, I painted my kitchen cabinets at 38 weeks pregnant... what do you expect!? I don't know how to sit still! 

While I'm having to flex extra patience about my recovery, we are truly loving being a family of three. Heidi is changing every single day, and becoming more and more alert. I definitely see what people mean when they say "babies don't keep." I miss my squishy little newborn from the hospital, but I love seeing her eyes lock with mine and watch her tracking things around the room. Mothering her is truly a dream come true for me, and I'm doing really well at focusing on the things I love about motherhood. There are days it's stressful (I don't love being screamed at by my tiny 8lb boss) but for the most part, I can barely remember life without her and pray to God I never have to know it. 


Next week will be one month with our Heidi-girl and I cannot believe how fast it's gone! I am so excited for all of my sweet friends who will be having their babies in the coming months... you're going on amazing journey. 



That is Heidi's birth story in a nut shell! If you ever want to talk about  c-section or breech babies, I'd love to talk with you and share my experience/hear yours. Since the pandemic has taken away my physical "village" I have been finding so much comfort and companionship from other moms online. You truly can't walk this journey alone, so I hope that sharing our story with Heidi's birth will connect with you if you are a mom on a similar path! 

Here's the video I put together of sweet Heidi's pregnancy and birthday! 

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